i'm not feeling so good. everything i eat seems to give my stomach a whirl. it's off and on and is mostly determined by whether i eat or not. my mom and dad say i should visit the doc... so i guess i will. it's sunday now and this has been going on for several days since we got back. i ate indian food pretty much every meal, i love indian food and i could not resist! i have a feeling it was either our last meal in the airport or one of the meals on the plane... too much information, sorry!
i have been meaning to update my blog since i got back, but i have been working and have not had a chance to get to the computer. and now that i am finally at the computer, i don't have my journal! for now i will just mention a few things.
one, i think i may have convinced my brother to come with me to india next time. so many times while i was there, i was thinking "my brother has to come here, he has to see this." so we'll see what God does there.
two, thank you so much to all of you who prayed for me while i was gone. please pray that God will clear up whatever leftover sickness i am having.
three. culture shock was killer. i felt like i left my heart in india. i was not happy to be back. i hated all of the controlled environments, the lines in the roads, the hyper organized systems, and most of all, the spirits i felt. i was coming from a place where we were super-sensitive to the spiritual environment around us, and i have to tell the truth. there are spirits here. they are sneaky. they are so sneaky. i felt them the moment our plane landed. they want to control and they do. there are means of control that they use - money, religion, image. we think of other countries as having territorial spirits. but we are so oblivious to the ones that rule over our own neighborhoods. even when i say this you are probably like, "oh yeah we know about those things." really? then what are you doing about it? i am so struck with the fact that we are to declare war against the principalities. we are not to live like everyone else and let them so subtly make us complacent.
Jesus turned over tables in the temple. He was violent. i'm ready to see some violence against the things we have put up with for so long. we have church and there is no presence of God and we are ok with that. we act like if we feel a little goosebumps then that is what we came for. i want JESUS. what does that look like? i don't know. all i know is i'm tired of the status quo. i am so tired of the religion that lulls us to sleep so that we continually miss the power of God. even the name of JESUS has been cloaked with religion in people's minds.
the JESUS i saw in india is not the jesus that i have seen in so many religious corners of this area. i have to tell you, i am so tired of it. i am exhausted, i feel no patience anymore.
God awaken us! Deliver us! and let us know Your true power and presence in this generation.
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